Faery Tale

Hello, same day, different post. I had to cut the last one short when I got to faeries as I thought it deserved a new, fresh post.

I have recently been reading a book called Faery Tale by Signe Pike, an American journalist. I picked this book up in a bookshop in Totnes. It spoke to me.. well, it looked beautiful with a cover worthy of wall mounting and a blurb that was exactly what I have been looking for. Someone's own journey, trying to find something to believe in once more. Well, as you can imagine that caught my eye. I've been deeply troubled by my severe lack of direction and faith over the past ten years or so. When God left my life (at 11) I was left with two options, believe that there was something, or that there was nothing.

I chose nothing. And that has been harsh. I stopped believing in so much, just because Christianity didn't speak to me. I was Gay of course, that didn't help. All I had heard was that Christians and Gays didn't quite mingle freely. They had serious issues. So I was looking, aimlessly, for a new direction. My first encounter with Paganism was a book called 'Hedgewitch' by Rae Beth. It was at my friends house, henceforth and forever more called MB that I found said book. I was like a nudge. A little nudge nudge, wink wink. I knew then that something was afoot.

So, years passed and I find myself visiting Glastonbury, with MB and my partner RH. Every time, I am more open to this wonderful world I have discovered. The world around me. I have always been a nature lover. I took Geography and Environmental Science and College. I still only know I did it for the love of the Earth. So, books are purchased and consumed. Witchcraft, Paganism, Druidry.

I finally know where I fit in, as I mentioned in my previous blog, I'm a pagan. And here we go, after months, years of searching. Much reading and learning. I pick up my copy of Faery Tale. I haven't finished it yet, I am on page 191 in fact.

Boom.

I felt what I can only describe as a presence. In my room, a few nights ago. I felt it so strong that I had to go into my generic state of ... fear. Yep, I got into bed, turned the lights off and kept my eyes closed. I apologised, to my empty room, for being such a complete scaredey-cat and went to sleep.

The following day I felt, different, I knew that I had to wander at lunchtime. I went looking for a musical soundtrack I fancied and upon failing miserably, I found myself in Goodlands Gardens. (That's near the new road bridge in Taunton, if ya wondered. It's not as peaceful as it used to be). Anyway, after finding myself in Goodlands Gardens for the first time in ten years of working at my pharmacy I decide to take the new bridge past Taunton Castle.

I find myself in the midst of a flurry of Bluebells. There's whitebells and daffs too. I haven't felt this close to nature for so long, it's like I have returned. Memories of Thurlbear woods appear in my mind. That childlike enthusiasm and enjoyment of those blue flowers reignites. I stop, take it in. I honestly felt like I had been lead there.

Since that moment, I have been noticing the good things so much more. Usually, you notice the bad things, skipping over the good events in your day. Well, I am well on the way to reversing that trend. I have felt this coming for a while now. It feels great. I have my crystals on me most of the day of course, I think this adds a sort of mental focus. It reminds me, 'think of the good points too, you know they are there'. They are.

My final little thing to add today happened not half an hour ago. My perfectly well attached poster (detailing every Pokemon no less) that has been in position on my wall for months fell down. It did it quite obviously, no fussing. Every corner of blue-tac detached from the wall and with a convincing crunch folded down to the carpet. Now, I know this is 100% a natural occurance, Blue-tac fails spectacularly ALL THE TIME. I expect atmospheric conditions regulate its adhesive qualities. But. It happened. I was actually in the room. Thinking about the Fae. Ta da. So, you see, I can't be sure either way. 

Please do comment, It would mean so much. And do read Faery Tale if you have the chance. At least to page 191. It's worth the money.

I wish you good luck and happiness,

DirtyBadger